Hindi napigilan ni Heart Evangelista, 38, ang maging emosyunal sa usapan nila ng mister na si Senator Chiz Escudero, 53, tungkol sa pananaw ng aktres sa broken friendships.
Sa heart-to-heart talk ng mag-asawa sa latest vlog ni Heart, ipinahiwatig ng Kapuso actress na may pinagdadaanan siyang bigat sa diddib dahil sa "betrayal" ng mga taong malapit sa kanya.
Walang pinangalanang mga personalidad si Heart, pero malaman ang mga binitawan niyang salita kaugnay ng mga karanasan daw niya sa pakikipagkaibigan.
Ayon kay Heart, mas masakit pa sa kanya ang broken friendship kaysa breakup ng isang romantic relationship.
"Parang mas nasasaktan ako sa friendship," bungad ni Heart.
"Kahit sa past ko, I'm always very clingy to my friends because I don't have a lot of friends.
"I've always been an outsider in school. I've always been, like, misunderstood, I guess.
"So, whenever I had just, like, key people, I literally would tell them that I couldn't live without them."
Napagtanto raw ni Heart na kung may mas dapat siyang kapitan, ito ay walang iba kundi ang mister niyang si Chiz.
Pag-amin ng aktres, "And although that was where I went wrong, I feel, because I should have, you know, went to you instead of them.
"But for me, it's because, of course you're family. That's the lesson. You should be with your family."
Masakit daw kay Heart pag nasisira ang pagkakaibigan dahil sobra siyang magbigay ng kanyang tiwala.
Pati personal na pinagdaraanan nila ni Chiz ay hindi raw niya naitatago sa isang kaibigan.
Lahad ni Heart: "But going back to the question, yes, for me it's painful because I never treat my friends like friends. I treat them like family.
"That's why when you treat them like family, they know the good and the bad because you're confident that they saw your heart first, right?
"So, it's painful for me. Because when I rant about my husband, I can't rant to my husband about him, right? I rant to my friends about my husband or whatever.
"So, for me, it's painful because it's like I wrote all my thoughts on a diary and they just stole it.
"So, for me, friendships are hard."
Sa hirit ni Heart, ipinahihiwatig na apektado ang influencer ng kung anumang pinagdaraanan niya sa mga kaibigan.
Pabirong saad ng aktres, "Kailangan ko ata mag-Rivotril. This is a Rivotril moment!"
Ang Rivotril, ayon sa medbroadcast.com, ay isang brand ng gamot na tinatawag na clonazepam.
Ang clonazepam ay isang uri ng gamot na kilala bilang benzodiazepines na ginagamit na sedative o lunas para sa seizures at anxiety.
IN PHOTOS: Heart Evangelista and glam team's happy moments prior to falling-out
ON TEST OF FRIENDSHIP FOR HEART
Ibinahagi rin ni Heart ang pananaw niya sa kasabihang "difficult times reveal true friends."
"No. I feel like it's the opposite," kontra ni Heart.
Paliwanag niya: "I used to think when you're down, people who are with you are the ones who truly love you.
"It's actually the opposite. When you're up and when you're doing very well, it's lonely to be, ano, where you are.
"Because you're busy, you're lonely, so you always want to be with people.
"But then, they don't really focus on you."
Pero kambiyo rin ni Heart tungkol sa choice ng isang tao, "Which is normal for a person, ha?
"I don't take it against them, or I don't take it against it anyone that would want more in life."
Sabay paniwala pa rin niya, "But I feel like it's the opposite. It's not when you're down when you know who your real friends are.
"It's when you're up there when you know who your real friends are, for me, I feel."
Sa puntong ito, ipinaliwanag ni Chiz na totoong may mga pagkakataong nakakaramdam ng loneliness ang isang tao pagtungtong sa stage o spotlight.
Payo naman ni Chiz kay Heart, "So, circumstances should not dictate how you feel. You should always have joy and peace regardless of the circumstances.
"You may be the audience, you may be the one on stage, you may be on the spotlight, you may not be on the spotlight.
"But at the end of the day, it's now how you view your circumstances and your location and what you're doing which will dictate whether or not you will be happy."
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ON HEART'S INNER STRUGGLE
Aminado si Heart na may pinanggagalingan siyang isyu sa sarili kaya hindi niya masang-ayunan ang mister pagdating sa kumpiyansa sa sarili.
Ang hugot niyang ito ay tila may kaugnayan pa rin sa kung paano niya hina-handle ang kanyang relasyon sa mga kaibigan.
Sabi ni Heart, "Yeah, but I'm not like you, you know. You're very like...
"I feel like I'm a lemon. Like a factory reject.
"Honestly, I feel like I really do. I really feel like there's something wrong with me or maybe I thought I was made for something but maybe I'm not."
Pagkonsola naman ni Chiz kay Heart, "Nobody's perfect, Babe. Ano bang opposite ng lemon? Apple?"
Sagot ulit ni Heart, "I don't know. Overrun? Charot!"
Matalinhagang paglilinaw ni Chiz, "No, what I'm trying to say, when they say there's a defect, that's called lemon.
"But at the end of the day, nobodys perfect. Everybody's a lemon."
Alam naman daw ni Heart na hindi siya perpekto.
Patuloy ng aktres, "But I guess, when you're really in a stage where everybody's watching...
"I'm not pertaining to anyone, I guess in general. Maybe that's why people like to keep their circle small because, you know, you rant about your siutation when you're tired.
"People around you get competitive. You start to drown. You reveal, like, your fears and your insecurities.
"But how do I put it into words?"
Ipinunto ni Chiz na alam dapat ni Heart kung saan siya huhugot ng lakas.
"Remember I keep on telling you. You define who you are.
"What you do or don't do should not be dictated by your perceived competitor or opponent, whether in politics or in business or in showbiz.
"So, you just keep on doing what you do best regardless of what's out there. Again, not being dictated by circumstances around you."
Read: Heart Evangelista on handling challenges: "You can't have a perfect life."
HEART ON HER "LIVING THE MOMENT" ATTITUDE
Depensa naman ni Heart, may sarili pa rin siyang desisyon pagdating sa buhay niya.
"Actually, I wasn't really dictated... I really enjoyed what I was doing," paglilinaw ng aktres.
Nakangiting sang-ayon ni Chiz, "I know."
Pag-amin ni Heart, "And you never really looked left, right, back, not even front. I was just really living in the moment."
Sang-ayon uli ng senador, "Sometimes you did."
Ani Heart, "Sometimes I did because, you know, you know what I mean? The chikaness?
"Well, it's still my fault because, no matter what it was, napatingin pa rin ako."
Hindi malinaw kung anong "chikaness" o isyu ang tinutukoy ni Heart, pero tila nagkaintindihan sila ng mister kahit hindi niya ipinaliwanag kung ano ito.
Sang-ayon ni Chiz, "And you were affected by it."
Sa sumunod na pahayag ni Heart, tila tinukoy niya ang pagnanais na dapat kasama niya si Chiz kapag siya ay nagpupunta sa Paris para sa fashion events.
Ani Heart, "I know! Kaya nga pag andun ka... Ha!"
Tanong ni Chiz, "Puwede ba virtually? May Zoom-Zoom naman."
Sagot ni Heart: "If you like, for sure, secure? Dapat kasi naglagay ako ng camera para nala-livestream mo ako para for sure protection."
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on OUTGROWING PEOPLE
Mahihinuha sa vlog ni Heart na malaking bahagi ng kanyang ibinabahaging kuwento ay may kinalaman sa pag-handle ng mga taong malapit sa kanya na hindi na niya kasama ngayon.
Isa kasing tanong sa vlog ay kung anong pananaw ng mag-asawa tungkol sa "outgrowing people in your life."
Ayon kay Heart, hindi niya matanggap kapag may kailangang mawala sa kanyang buhay.
"Maybe I'm naive, gullible, or stupid. Yeah, actually, [stupid is a] stronger word.
"I never believed in outgrowing people. I always wanted to be with the same people that's why I always take a lot of pictures.
"Because I feel like it's alright now to print these pictures and frame them because they'll forever be there."
Pero alam din daw niyang may pagkakataong taliwas ang nangyayari sa kanyang buhay.
Patuloy ni Heart: "I've always believed that everybody can be together forever.
"But it is what is.
"So, if you really love people... because I think you're the type... You're very realistic that you think they can come, they can go, that's life. They say I love you, whatever...
"But for me, communication is important."
Naniniwala raw si Heart na walang isyung hindi napag-uusapan nang maayos.
Paliwanag pa rin ng aktres: "It's the same with marriage. Sometimes you outgrow each other, sometimes you want other things.
"But what will keep you together, you have to be open and talk to each other.
"It's the same with friendship. If you're the type who would want them to stay, you all should have like an open relationship and completely talk about each other, the good and the bad.
"I'm not for separate lives."
Paninindigan daw ni Heart ang pag-hold on sa "good memories" kahit wala na ang isang tao sa buhay niya, mapakamag-anak o kaibigan.
Malaman uli ang sagot ni Heart nang tanungin kung paano niya hinaharap ang sitwasyon kung saan na-betray siya ng isang kaibigan.
Payo ni Chiz, para maiwasang masaktan ay dapat may distansiya sa kanyang trato sa isang kaibigan na nakakasakit sa kanya.
Sabi naman ni Heart, "Naku! Naghuhubad nga ako sa harapan nila, deadma ako, e!"
Natawa lang si Chiz.
Sabay seryosong sabi ni Heart, "Yeah, gets. I don't even know. I don't even have an answer to that.
"I'm still in the process of it all. I'm just, you know, I'm living as we speak."
Hirit pa ni Heart sa mister, "So, di mo ako puwede iwanan. Sinabi ko sa yo, kailangan palagi ka andun!"
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AN EMOTIONAL HEART
Sa huli, tuluyang napaluha si Heart nang ibahagi niya ang kanyang dasal sa gabi.
"I always ask for forgiveness for the things that I didn't understand and I reacted so abruptly towards.
"And I'm just very grateful for my life. I'm grateful for the good and the bad. Even if I feel sad still about certain things..."
Naputol ang sinasabi ni Heart dahil nag-sorry siya dahil ramdam niyang nagiging emosyunal siya.
Sabay patuloy niya, "I take the... kumbaga, dinidibdib ko.
"Kahit yung mga... kumbaga, kung may naging kasalanan ako, sige kasalanan ko na lahat, okay."
Kung anuman ang isyung pinagdaraanan niya, isang bagay raw na natutunan niya ay ang kumapit sa mga tunay na nagmamahal at nakakakilala sa kanya.
Sa puntong ito, tila naalala ni Heart ang napabalitang pinagdaanan nila ni Chiz na marital problem, at kung paano sila nag-usap uli.
Read: Heart Evangelista posts message for husband Chiz Escudero; netizens react, "Pinagalaw na ang baso!"
"When Chiz and I spoke after a long time, he said that I didn't need to say anything because he knew my heart.
"And for me, that is the most important. No matter what you do in life, whatever the mistakes that, kind of, carried you away, you always go back to your family because they know your heart."
Sabi pa ni Heart, "Despite and in spite of everything, the story probably won't ever be compelete for everybody, but I have my family. I have Chiz."
FALLING-OUT WITH HER GLAM TEAM
Sa kasalukuyan, wala pa ring direktang pahayag si Heart tungkol sa isyu ng falling-out nila ng kanyang dating glam team, kabilang ang makeup artist na si Justin Soriano at hair stylist na si Jeck Aguilar.
Pati ang stylist ni Heart na si Kat Cruz at fashion designer na si Mark Bumgarner ay napansin ng netizens na hindi na nakakatrabaho ng aktres.
Naging maugong itong usap-usapan nang mapansin ng netizens na hindi na sina Justin at Jeck ang glam team ni Heart sa GMA Gala 2023, na ginanap noong July 22 sa Manila Mariott Hotel.
Dito napansin ng netizens na hindi na rin nagpo-post si Heart na kasama nito sina Justin at Jeck, gayong madalas magkakasama ang mga ito sa events ng Kapuso actress sa loob at labas man ng bansa.
Hanggang sa lumabas ang usap-usapang nagkalamat ang relasyon ni Heart kina Justin at Jeck dahil sa credit-card issue.
Ginamit umano nina Justin at Jeck ang credit card ni Heart nang walang paalam.
Mariin itong pinabulaanan ni Justin, na nagsabing tanging si Heart ang may kapasidad gumamit ng credit card nito.
Noong kasagsagan ng isyu, nakasagutan ni Justin ang longtime personal assistant ni Heart na si Rezsty Rosell.
Umalma si Rezsty dahil bakit daw kailangan pang isapubliko ni Justin ang pag-alis nito sa poder ni Heart.
Read: Heart Evangelista's PA to makeup artist Justin Soriano: "Lumalabas wala kang utang na loob."
Depensa ni Justin, napilitan siyang sumagot sa netizens dahil naalarma siya sa isyu ng pera at pagnanakaw na idinidikit sa pangalan nila ni Jeck, gayong wala raw katotohanan ang isyu.
Nagpahiwatig din ng sama ng loob si Justin dahil wala man lang daw paglilinaw si Heart na hindi totoo ang ipinupukol sa kanila ni Jeck na credit-card issue.