Bahagyang naging emosyunal ang radio DJ na si Kat Alano sa pag-amin niyang na-rape siya siyam na taon na ang nakalilipas.
Matatandaang noong January 2014 ay naging kontrobersiyal ang mga post ni Kat sa kanyang Instagram at Twitter accounts tungkol sa rape.
Kasagsagan noon ng paglabas ng isyu tungkol sa akusasyon ng modelong si Deniece Cornejo na ni-rape diumano siya ng aktor na si Vhong Navarro.
Dahil dito, marami ang nagtanong kung biktima rin si Kat Alano ng rape.
Subalit itinanggi ng radio DJ na may kinalaman ang posts niya sa social media sa akusasyong rape laban kay Vhong.
Read: DJ Kat Alano's Facebook and Twitter posts about rape create buzz
Noong Huwebes, April 24, sa episode ng podcast show ni DJ Mo Twister na Good Times With Mo, ay nagsalita na si Kat kaugnay ng post niya noon tungkol sa rape.
Dito ay tinanong siya ni DJ Mo: “You got rape nine years ago?”
Pagkumpirma niya: “Yup. That’s correct.”
Pero tumanggi si Kat na pangalanan ang taong gumahasa sa kanya.
Sa halip, sinabi lamang niyang isa itong public figure mula sa isang TV network.
“I’m not ready to do that because what it will become is public figure versus public figure,” ani Kat.
HOW IT HAPPENED. Sa halos 30 minuto na pag-uusap nila ni DJ Mo, malinaw pa rin kay Kat ang detalye ng nangyari sa kanya siyam na taon na ang nakalilipas.
Kuwento ng TV and radio personality, “I was out in a club and I was drinking with my friends.
“I had been there for a while so I drank quite a bit.
“And I saw him out and, of course, you know showbiz, Mo, when you met someone that you know, you say ‘hi.’
"You hang out and say, ‘Hey, kumusta, blah blah, beso-beso, blah blah.
“Then, we drank together, he bought me a drink, we were hanging out.
"I was with my friends so there were a bunch of people.
“After a little while, I wanna go home, I started to feel tired.
“I wanna drive home and he went, 'Let me drive you home.’
“I was like, ‘I’ll go with my friends. My friends are gonna come with me.’”
Sa kabila ng pagtanggi ni Kat, nagpumilit diumano ang sinasabi niyang public figure na ihatid siya sa kanyang bahay. Kaya kinalaunan ay pumayag na rin siya sa alok nito.
“He was like insisting that he would drive me home.
“He was like, 'I’ll get my driver to follow in my car and I’ll drive your car.
"'You're drunk, I’ll take you back to your place, and I'll go home right afterwards.'
“I was drunk, so okay, why not? His driver was right there, I saw his car, he was gonna go afterwards, why not?
“You don’t assume that something bad is gonna happen.
“When you meet them through people you know, you automatically assume you can trust them, right?”
CONFUSED. Habang nasa daan pauwi, bigla na lamang daw nag-iba ang pakiramdam ni Kat.
Sabi niya, “While I was driving back to my place, while in the car, I started to feel confused.
“I started to think to myself, 'What did I drink because I feel weird right now.’”
Nagtaka raw siya dahil kahit naparami ang kanyang nainom, kakaiba ang naramdaman niya sa pagkakataong iyon.
Sinabi ni DJ Mo na maaaring nahaluan ng gamot ang ininom niya.
Sabi naman ni Kat, “I'm saying in my whole life, before that and after that, I never felt that way before nor have I felt it again.
“At that time, it didn’t even cross my mind.
"I was thinking about what alcohol did I mix, did I shot something that I’m allergic to or something...
“I felt confused, I felt baffled.
“I didn't know what was going on, I didn’t know what was happening to my body.”
Pagdating sa kanyang inuuwian, sabi ni Kat, naging mapilit pa rin daw ang public figure na ihatid siya hanggang sa kanyang pintuan.
Pag-alala ni Kat, “We got to my place, he parked the car, and I was, like, 'I'm gonna go upstairs now, thank you so much.'
“And his driver was right there and he was like, 'No, no, I'll take you upstairs.'
“I said, ‘No, you can’t take me upstairs.'”
Matapos ang ilan pang pagpupumilit, kuwento ni Kat, “He started to usher me towards the elevator.
"I didn't want to go but I couldn't stop it, I couldn't control my body.
“I was saying, 'No, no, no, you can’t come up.’
"There was something in me that was already freaking out.
“When we got to the elevator, I reached for my keys, I had them in my hands.”
Nagsimula raw siyang mag-blackout nang makarating sila mismo sa pintuan ng kanyang tinutuluyan.
“I was hazy, I was starting to lose it, I was losing consciousness.
"He opened the door and I blacked out.”
SEXUAL ASSAULT. Patuloy ni Kat, “I don't know what happened next.
"The only thing I know was that I woke up.
"I passed out on my floor with my arms above my head and my legs were up in the air, and he was pulling off my jeans.”
Sa pagkakataong ito, ayon kay Kat, ilang ulit siyang nagising ngunit agad ding nagba-blackout.
“He looked really surprised that I was awake, and I blacked out again,” aniya.
Sa ilang beses na nagigising siya, nakita niyang nasa ibabaw na niya ang lalaki at hinahalikan siya.
“When I passed out, I had no clue, it was like a reset button.
“It was like, ‘Where am I? What the hell is going on?'
“And you know what he said to me? 'Don't worry, nothing's gonna happen, calm down, don't worry.'
“Until I passed out again and then he did it again.
"And I woke up and I started to freak out again.
“Again, he sat down and said, 'Don't worry, nothing's gonna happen.'
"And he tried to calm me down and until I passed out again.
“And I woke up, I didn’t know how much time had passed.
"There was a knocking on my door that woke me up. I didn’t know what was going on again."
WHY ONLY NOW? Katulad ng karamihan, tinanong ni DJ Mo si Kat kung bakit ngayon lamang niya nagawang magsalita tungkol dito.
Ayon kay Kat, nag-trigger sa kanya ang akusasyong rape na ibinabato ngayon ni Deniece laban kay Vhong.
“Out of all the high-profile cases that have been in the media, this one is something that triggered me the most.
“And when something triggered something in you, Mo, after nine years, you know what I’m saying…
“I wanted this to go away, I wanted to sweep this under the rug, I wanted it to bury it.
"I wanted it to die. I wanted to forget. I never wanted to think about it again.”
Dagdag pa niya, “This is absolutely the one that hit me the most.
"It broke me wide open.
“It actually brought back all these feelings that I don’t even know that I had.
“Okay, it’s incredible how in nine years, you can think that you’re totally fine.
“Then, one thing just sparks it all off.
"And all these feelings you thought that you have never had or ever had to deal with are all of a sudden coming back.”
NO DENIECE CONNECTION. Gayunman, nilinaw ni Kat na hindi niya kilala si Deniece o si Cedric Lee, isa sa mga akusado sa pambubugbog kay Vhong.
Diin niya, “I don’t know Deniece and Cedric at all. I’ve never met them.
“I don’t know anything about their case, really.
“I haven’t even been following it. I don’t really know about that.
“For the rest of it, I’m not ready to comment on that.”
Samantala, nabanggit din ni Kat kung gaano siya naapektuhan ng isyu.
“The past three months has been me dealing with that, constantly telling myself that I was raped. I was raped.
“You know, coming to term with that with myself, that this thing happened to me, and I have to deal with that.
“You know, I’ve had anxiety attacks. I cry not knowing why. I’m afraid for stupid reasons.
“I don’t understand what I’m feeling half a time because of these emotions that I never really knew I’ve had.
“I was petrified…. fear, anxiety, just not being able to speak, being afraid to be just by myself.”
FREEING HERSELF. Sa bandang huli ng kanilang pag-uusap, tinanong ni DJ Mo si Kat kung may balak siyang magsampa ng kaso laban sa tinutukoy niyang public figure.
Sagot niya, “I can’t afford the legal aspect of it.
“Do you know how hard it is to file a case?
"Do you know how long it takes and how many people you have to go through?
"Do you know what kind of scrutiny I will be facing?”
Sa ngayon, kuntento muna raw si Kat na ibahagi ang kanyang pinagdaanan sa publiko.
“I’m okay talking about this stuff because I’m okay with being that example.
“This is what happens to rape victims, when you say these things to them,” aniya.
Dagdag pa niya, ito ang paraan niya para makapag-move on.
“This is why I'm saying this now, I'm admitting that I was raped.
"I will say that because that is part of freeing yourself."